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Name: Jessica
Country: United States
State: North Dakota
Metro: Minot
Birthday: 6/26/1982
Gender: Female
Interests: Getting piercings and tattoos at the Dead Rockstar store.
Being the best Christian I can be.
Having fun (without sex, drugs, but maybe with a little rock 'n roll).
Expertise: Being crazy. Getting weird looks from people (I swear I'm not that weird looking). Acting like everyone's mom.
Generally being a nice Christian girl.
Occupation: Marketing
Industry: Nonprofit
Message: message meEmail: email me
Website: visit my website
Member Since:
1/16/2004
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| Now, usually I don't do New Year's resolutions. In fact, I usually
roll my eyes and make fun of people who do. Unfortunately, since
Wyoming I have been seriously slacking on my finances. I don't have to
worry about money so I don't. It makes it a lot easier to budget when
you know that if you don't you might not be able to pay your electric
bill.
So, in an effort to be a better consumer, save money, and start tithing
again, I am starting the new year off right by making and *gasp*
sticking to a budget. This is a hard thing for a girl who considers
shopping to be a form of therapy. So, I did some research this morning
online. I found this nifty free Web site www.budgettracker.com. There
you can plug in your income, bills, budgeted items, and track all your
expenses online. I'm pretty excited about it, although I get strangely
excited about organization.
So, now that I've posted this information to hold myself accountable
I'll get to the real issue with money. In Wyoming I was always
thinking about the poor because I was part of that group. As a
Christian I feel it's our call to live in solidarity with the poor.
Unfortunately it becomes hard in a materialistic society. We are
taught from birth to strive to succeed so we can have all that we
want. Unfortunately we are not taught nearly as much about being
responsible with finances, sharing with the less fortunate, and saving
for large expenses. We are also not taught (especially in church) that
our expenses are not our own and that no matter what belief system we
belong to that we have a responsibility to make sure that everyone is
taken care of. We have this sense of entitlement and we tend to look
down on those who can't support themselves. We preach and write books
about every other topic. We demonize those who are doing the sins
Jesus just barely mentioned and we look over the sins that Jesus most
often spoke about.
Now, I'm not trying to make anyone feel guilty. I'm mostly mad at
myself. I am definitely one of the people I know that is worst at
this. And I notice the toll that this sin takes on my life. I'm also
trying to put this out there for anyone else who deals with this sin.
I encourage you to use this year to take control. Budget, pay down
your debt, save your money, tithe, and notice how light the burden
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| I was talking to Grant the other day about goals and careers and such. He's working at Taco Bell now and super happy with it. But yet, society tells him that he must do something "Important." We are all supposed to be "Important" people with our careers. I'm so sick of hearing it and so sick of being expected to chase the American dream. Right now, yes, I do love my job and I am what some would call successful but I don't think I'll be here forever. I think I would be so much happier just workin' in a yarn store, wasting my educated mind (props if you know what movie that comes from).
It all just makes me think about what's important. I want to do a job that gives me satisfaction but doesn't leave me drained at the end of the day so I still have some energy to meet new people, try new things, and to make a difference in people's lives. I just keep thinking of this John Reuben line that goes, " I fear a broken home courtesy of the American dream." The thing that worries me is that we're all just going about this life doing things because we're supposed to, not because that's the best thing for us in G-d's eyes. Hmm, what's your motivation for doing the things you do?
Time to Leave by John Reuben
Taught young, the world’s wisdom
I told life’s a game, the earth will be your stadium
Be alert, pay attention
(One day) Even your friends will become the competition
Trust no one but do remember this, never burn any potential bridges
Know who’s who, and what they can do for you
And don’t feel bad cause’ in the end they’re gonna do it to you too
Remember life’s not fair
In order to maintain, your gonna have to let you sensitivity be trained
A machine more than a human being
What you say doesn’t always have to be what you mean
Tell them what they want to hear if it’s to your benefit
And words beyond closed doors are insignificant
Push yourself, never be satisfied
Even if you don’t get it, at least you died knowing you tried
Born, live, strive, succeed
Gain it all, bye, now it’s time to leave…
Now, all we see is now
Taught young, the world’s wisdom
Begin to pay attention and make my own observations
All of the kids working hard for admiration
Trying their best not to meet their social expiration
Kind of hard in a world this finicky
Easily praised and yet destroyed just as quickly
I guess me and this world must not be compatible, cause I don’t want its approval to feel valuable
So who’s next to climb the wall of success, just to see how good the top truly gets
Chasing lies disguised as going somewhere only to arrive and realize it’s really no where
That’s even if you get there in the first place
What an incredible let down we’re bound to face when we substitute purpose for cheap counterfeit
Too busy trying to succeed in life that we forget to live it
You can live in the infinite or give in to the immediate
Gain it all but someday you’ll have to leave it
This world is temporary and it’s heart is selfish
Think to yourself, is this what wealth is
But now, all we see is now and now is not a bad thing but now does bring tomorrow then
Now becomes then
Moments escape, new ones replace them
Don’t want to face the end still searching
Asking what in this world did I ever find worth in
What could be worse than life of wasted years
Nothing lasting, nothing true, nothing dear
I fear losing beauty in pursuit of bigger things
I fear a broken home courtesy of the American dream
Maybe that’s just me with my emotions on my sleeve, but one way or another we all wear what we believe
Born, live, strive, succeed
Gain it all, bye, now it’s time to leave…
But now, we’re wasting now
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| I've had several people comment on me becoming an adult. It seems that in the past few weeks I have somehow become an indepent woman without realizing it. It feels weird. I'm doing things like interviewing, hiring, and making important decisions. The dean of our campus has actually asked my opinion about marketing and the like. I don't know, it's such a weird and unusual experience. I still see myself as an insecure 15 -year-old kid just trying to look tough. When did my life completely change?
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| Earlier this year I learned how to make taquitos and salsa verde from my good friend Amie. Tonight I choose to put those skills to use back in the F/M. If anyone will be around tonight and is looking for some (semi-)authentic Mexican food (Amie use to live with a Mexican family and that's where she learned the mad cooking skills she passed to me) just give me a ring a ding ding and I'll tell you where the party's at. Right now it looks to be about 9 at the town house. Oh, and there will be some Corona and lime so don't be late or Jake G and I may drink it all  . Hope everyone's having a great day. See you soon!
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| Ever have one of those days where you realize you're not perfect...not even close. Yeah, I'm right smack dab in the middle of one right now. *Sigh*
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